Goodbye...

It was hard. Much harder than I expected.

We have just packed the last week full of fun and good memories.

All knowing today would come.

I have jokingly said "when you come home I will be thinner" and then it hit me last night. He will never see me pregnant again.

I didn't have the heart to wake up my kids early this morning to see him off.

I had him do it. It didn't make it any easier.

I miss him. Already. Terribly. I just hope that the next seven months go fast. Not just hope but am praying that they go fast.

So between now and then,

till I see you again I'll be loving you.

Love,

Me

I {heart} Autumn!

And I {heart} these kids

32 weeks

I love this baby.

I am loving feeling him move and kick and squirm inside me.

I can't wait to meet him.

I can't wait to see who he looks like.

At the same time I am okay with him staying in a while.

Because I know this will be my last baby.

And I am anxious about his birth.

I cry when I think about it.

I had my check up today.

It was the last appointment Matt will be able to go to.

That makes me cry.

Everything looks fine. Besides the contractions I am having, which by the way are not doing anything. I have gained a fraction of what I normally do. Yes, a fraction, as in about 1/3. He is moving like crazy but he is much calmer than some of my babes. Myles loves talking to my belly button and tells the baby all kinds of things. Like how to play football and chocolate milk is for big boys. Myles is sure (and tells the baby often) that I am not the baby's mother. We are working on that one. My doc is going to induce me in seven weeks if I haven't delivered just so it can be a controlled birth (controlled as in not in the middle of the night, by myself, on the side of the freeway).

16

It seems like only yesterday he looked like this...

And now he is 16.

He has a driving learner's permit. He can officially date. He goes to high school. He was ordained a priest. He has a job. He is the age I was when he was born. It has all happened so fast. I am so proud of the young man he has become. I wish I could take credit for how he has turned out but I swear he came this way. For his birthday he decided he wanted to hold a food drive. Amazing. Really amazing. He was able to raise over $500, which will provide 2,500 meals to hungry Arkansas residents, and over 100 pounds of canned food. So proud.